Heart

Another nugget of gold to add in the center of heart. Self-love. This whole weekend I participated with other friends at the David Elliot Harvest retreat. It was the most loving, tough loving and by that I mean there was no one there that was going to hold your hand reviewing what your heart already knows. There were interactions of pure desire to open the door to the heart and be what it takes to be in the light of love.
So my self-love resurfaces from the fact that I don't leave it up to others to decide on my life or take from others because I feel empty or because there is no acknowledgement in what I am doing to participate in life through my experiences. If I am present and aware of my breath, that I am alive and that in itself is a miracle then there are no missing pieces. If I can acknowledge my body, mind and spirit than I see the beauty and boundless possibilites to carry out the purpose of my life which by the way is love. My assignment for this week is be in constant love with every breath I take.
I woke up with the feeling of love over me before I even opened my eyes. I came in to work with a sense of love and respect for what I do and who I work with.
The exchange is pure love, that is what I learned this weekend. Every act of interaction with my car, with the garden, with the breath I take, with the patients that come in to the clinic, with the people that I live iwth will be an exchange of love. So this is what I understood, what I learned at the retreat...If the base, foundation of my existence is not deeply rooted in LOVE then what type of exchange will I have with those that I meet in my path, with that boundless food I am fortunate to taste each day, with the creatures that come and greet me among the hikes I share with them. If my foundation is not love but expectations, emptyness, worry, fear, control, manipulation, on and on what type of exchange could there be among my experiences.
Wow, what a gift to learn from the foundation of LOVE and the essence of my existence, after all when my dad met my mother how did I come about if not from an act of love. So, I share with the new found in LOVE person that I choose to be, choose to walk as and choose to vibrate in this world. A few experiences with speaking directly from the heart...I got a call from the credit card company...payment was due...interest rate was now at 14%...finance charges...not on Sunday morning I thought as I was driving to my mother's house, I am not going to call them, I'll call them on Monday...finally I dialed the number with some angst in my chest and ready to fight, ready to defend myself until I remember as my cell phone was sliding towards my chest and close to my heart, I remembered I'll have to do is to speak from my heart, let my heart lead and connect with this person on the other end, let the heart lead without fear. The woman begun setting up the payment amount I had been denied and just asked me to choose a date for my next payment AND my interest rate would be now at 0% interest rate!! I couldn't believe it and asked for her name and thanked her and wished a great day and the rest of this day was spent full to the rim with my mother and niece travelling through the Mojave desert. Exceptional. Rich. Abundant. This is the beggining of bringing that thought of speaking from the heart, letting the heart lead and then my words can be full of what my heart is made out of. So back to vibration and sound: what does love sound like? Is it like the flight of birds soaring through the sky, is it like the gentle touch of dew upon the leaves of plants, is it winds settling down as the sun visits the other part of the Earth, is it in the sigh of finally letting go and trusting. I always wonder about the song of birds and how and where are they sending their vibration to and those plants that come and share their beauty with me, where is their vibration resonating in? If my vibration today is one of pure love then where is it resonating, what is it healing? What is it telling the universe, how far does my vibration resonate?
In the process of healing, of becoming whole, this was the missing piece that left me sleepless at night, the longing to be conected to all that is around me and beyond. The vibration of love is what I choose today.

More to come.....