Transformation

At the top of Temescal canyon there is an opening towards the left where the flora is caved in full of trees and shrubs and the birds fly back and forth as if they were being pulled a swirl of energy, something there pulls you in to take a pause and express gratitude.
The canyons in California are full of richness and abundance and the scent of sage travels along you cleansing your worries or noise and carries you deep in its silence.
Every step you take as you hike is an opportunity to breathe in the subtleness through your feet, its almost like replenishing for the day. Every pore taking in the fluidity of this creative flow that is active all the time even when we sleep. It moves with the winds and rivers all along the planet and a shower is not just a shower, its a time when the life force meets with your skin, thoughts and emotions.
There is more freedom in writing now with the realization that I am just a conduit and I am here to explore and transmit my joy, my love for this planet. Last night I met with my mother and even though I still find resistance with it, remnants of the past, I met with her with such delight and playfullness acepting fully her love and conection with me. She greeted me with the enthusiasm of a lifetime together and we left for the movies hand in hand like two long lost friends who are now reunited forever. The love I felt as I sat next to her was filled and overflowing with gratitude. We had dinner together and as I drove her home we talked about her father and mother and their interactions. The travels and dreams of her as a young woman and I realized that she is an incredibly powerful woman who dared to take risks in life and move through life with her beauty as she does today. She is a survivor of breast cancer and that has recently gained in me a greater admiration in how she was determined not only to live but to heal herself. I am in love with my mother, and only love has opened me up to the different aspects of love. The love I feel for her, for my son, for women, men, friends, strangers, creatures, the Earth. We talk about love so much and there is such a quest in love, the bottom line of most inner conflicts are about love and how and why we aren´t loved, but when we fall in love it overflows everywhere. We love everything we do, we long to be that expression of love and have it become the ruling guide because there is nothing you can´t do without love. When it is present there is abundance and acceptance and gratitude and the pure desire of creating and living to the fullest in your life.
So I am in love with my mother and her gentleness, care, curiosity, joy, willingness, persistance. I see her in the light but only because I walk in the light today myself.
Los Angeles is a city of innovation and constant creative energy flow in it. Things are constantly changing and evolving, I feel that there is a current that moves much faster here and if you are not grounded it shakes you around like an unrooted tree and it gets much harder to make decisions when you are left trembling with every little wind that comes through.
Today I can feel a cold breeze, the season is changing and I welcome it with my wings fully extended.
Thank you for the gift of writing, thank you for another breath I take so I can take another hike through the Will Rogers Park.
I love Life!!!